Thank God....?

On a small continuation from my last post...

I was sitting at my desk today, and thinking about how positively things have turned out and I began thinking to myself along the lines of 'thank god things are working out'...then I realised how weird it was that such a statement would come into my mind when I am in fact an Atheist. I'm a bit of a hippy, believing in the spirits of nature, water, land etc. but I've never really got the hang of the whole idea that there's a big dude somewhere up there with a shimmering white beard and knowledge of all...I just couldn't get to grips with the whole idea that people would worship someone (of course a man) who created everything and follow the bible, something created by humanity (in which curiously, the only woman with a good soul being Mary) so I thought I'd go about letting others believe whilst I went my hippy way. So I thought, why am I thanking God for all the positive stuff that's happened lately. Then I found myself wishing there was something out there I could thank for all my good fortune...

Then it struck me. Sod it...I'll thank myself. The only reason things good happen in my life is because I make them happen.
I'm really happy because I've got a great larp outfit and I'm going to Larp events...the only reason that is, is because I earned cash (from a job which I pushed myself to get. that wasn't luck. I spent years learning the skills and contacted tons of people until I was notified), I spent 2 hours looking for an outfit then I found one. I'm going to the larp events because I booked it ( after Tom got the forms off the web) and sorted the check as opposed to sitting down and saying 'I'll do it later) I'm also happy because we're going away for a weekend, but the only reason that's happening is because I sat down and I searched the internet for places to go.

When people mention the good luck they've had, it's not because some out side force gave it to them...it's probably because they went out and did things to achieve it. It wasn't an out side force that got me into Brunel Uni. It was me doing all the chasing, and calling and pushing that got me in. And no one else wrote my dissertation for me. I spent hours on that thing until I was happy with it and that got me a good grade. No one else did it for me, so why should I thank them? Of course I was given assistance, which I AM grateful for, but I actually wrote the thing.

So the next time I think to myself 'Thank God this has happened...' unless it's something completely out of my control which happened positively, I will remind myself the reason it happened was because I made it happen. I pulled my finger out and did it.